ON BEING
This is a poem about being
About being made in His likeness
And being saved on a daily basis
Maybe even an hourly basis
This poem is about being
Being filled with the Holy Spirit
About being being filled with the Holy Spirit
And what all that means.
I am talking about process
A continual lifelong process of getting right with God
And clear with yourself
And honest, and kind, and grateful,
and way more humble and a lot less dramatic
in the Bible when it says “walk out your salvation with fear and trembling”
I think that is because it is never really done
It is always being done
When it says saved by grace through faith it means saved, again
Not like you weren’t saved before
But you weren’t saved there, in that dark corner,
Or strange avenue in your mind
Haven’t you ever felt like you just got thrown back on the Potter’s wheel?
Thwaap
There you are, a lump of clay
Sitting in the middle of your circumstances
All balled up and feeling alone
And then that wheel starts to spin
And what a ride – you spin, and spin
And then you feel that Living Water
Pouring down your sides
And then those magnificent hands begin
To shape you, lead you, hold you, direct you,
and somehow pull out the best in you
Every time you believe that God can
God can
and He does
but sometimes He does it so long after the fact
that it seems like it didn’t even happen
even though it did.
No one reading this would be as extraordinary as each of you are
if it wasn’t for God,
pulling you out of that fiery furnace,
if it wasn’t for God teaching you how to slay a lion, and a bear,
before He allowed you to kill a giant.
If it wasn’t for God you wouldn’t look so good today
you may have had more bling but you wouldn’t have
nearly the substance you have.
If it wasn’t for God you probably would have folded
even though by the looks of you, you probably had a winning hand
If it wasn’t for God
you’d still think it was okay
to smoke, or lie, or swear
you might even think it was cool to have sex with someone you aren’t married to
but now you know
you know what the standards are
whether or not you’re able to live up to them
at least you know them
in the deepest part of you.
If it wasn’t for God you wouldn’t feel so bad when you mess up
and do it wrong
you would just be able to handle it and not know
that what you got to do is get serious with God
and talk to Him
confess, repent, and turn away from whatever it is, or was
that made you think it was more important than
your relationship with Abba Father.
If it wasn’t for God you wouldn’t have those crystalline moments of
absolute joy – those moments of sheer awe,
those moments when you know beyond a shadow of a doubt that
He loves you – He loves you.
Those moments you know when He’s got you – He’s got you
Like right now, how He’s telling you
I love you – I love you
Fear not, for I am with you
Always, even to the end of the age.
—Julie Evans